Hey people! I apologize for how long it has been since I have written. I am in the works of getting a schedule going and having new topics to write and talk about!
Last night I was just thinking about this whole year and how much I have grown. Think back to January 2021. Where were you? How were you handling things? Did you feel mentally stable? How does that compare to now?
In January 2021 I was depressed. I developed anxiety once giving birth and becoming a mom. It was almost one year since I had been to work outside of my house. I think that had a huge impact on me feeling so depressed and anxious – I had nothing to look forward to that was my own. That’s why in February I revamped this blog! And began to really be present on social media.
So that’s how I handled things. I got on my meds and began to handle my life so much more! It was easier to be in the present space and mindset. It was easier to enjoy the little things with my family and look forward to doing things with them. At the beginning of the year I was not mentally stable. Some days I still don’t feel like I am. It ebbs and flows with my mental health.
I have leaned on my close friends and am really learning how to communicate in an effective way. I have a life coach who is helping me to see that I need to work on how I do things like communicate. Once I figured out I need to speak up more and say what I want and don’t want it has helped my mental health even more. It has improved my relationship with my husband and my son.
I used to be so angry because I was “the only one” doing everything. But all I needed to do was say, “Hey, I need help and this is where I need it”. It’s really that simple. But I grew up in a house where my mom wouldn’t do that. She didn’t ask my dad for help like that and there is my example. It isn’t a great example but she was doing what she thought she needed to.
In my relationship, we have been together for such a long time, you’d think it would be easier by now! But marriage is work every single day. It’s hard work to maintain a level of communication that will express what I need to but understand that now that I stay home, the home is my job. This doesn’t mean I do everything on my own. It means I do some things more often. It’s a partnership.
I wouldn’t have been able to write this a month ago. So I am so proud of my growth in that short time span. I am proud of my growth from April. I am proud of my growth from January. I am proud of my growth from 2020. We are all still going through stuff that involves Covid. But we are making it through. Lean on the ones who love you. And always, ALWAYS know I am here for you!