Perception of Perfection

I wrote and rewrote this first blog post, trying to get it perfect for you and for myself. I’m always trying to be the best I can be, do my best to give 100% effort in everything I do. I don’t strive for perfection per se, but I do try my best to be the person I think I should be. I just wanted to write the perfect thing so that everyone reading would be interested. But not being myself or trying to be someone I’m not is something that plagued me my entire life.

I was told early in my life that I should be like the other girl and not like myself because I wasn’t like the other girl. I always liked being with the boys more than girls and even went through a phase in my life where I wished I was a boy and dressed like a boy. Later I got a boy haircut but that was when I came out of that phase of wanting to be a boy. It wasn’t until I was trying to get pregnant that I really had to embrace my body for what I was: a girl, or woman at that time.

I struggle with being the person who isn’t popular sometimes. Sometimes I wish I had a bunch of friends and other days I’m good with just having a few close friends. Sometimes I wish I could be more like other people and other days I am so happy to be myself. So I struggled with writing the “perfect” blog post. I started over four times ya’ll. I have come to the conclusion that I am myself. No one else is expecting me to be anyone but me. I am the one putting that pressure on myself, not anyone else. I can write or not write about anything I feel like and it will be perfectly fine. It will be perfect without me trying to be perfect.

I just spoke to a lady I follow on Instagram who said she was going through the exact same thing. She was trying to be super specific in her blog posts and only writing about her “topic” on Instagram. Feeling like she had to write the “right stuff” and not the stuff she wanted to write about. She said it was such a pressure release when she realized she could just write and we would still be there to read it. We would learn more about her and like her for more than just what she does for a living.

I want to do the same. I want you to know the real me. I want to have a fun, safe page that kind of dives into more serious topics but I want to make the focus here topics that I can relate to such as postpartum, depression/anxiety, the stigma around being the perfect mom, the pressure to have a perfect body, infertility, pregnancy, relationships and transitioning to SAHM. These are just some of the topics I want to focus on here but also touch on them on my social media pages. Therefore I had a very hard time this past month figuring out what I wanted my starting point to be.

My goal for this blog is to be more organized. I did have nine days to figure this out and I attempted three other times before this, but I want to have a clear picture of where I want to go from here. There’s a lot of pressure on the SAHM to have the perfect house, the cleanest house, the perfect marriage, so many extracurriculars, the best behaved kid, looking great, the best fashion sense and everything is supposed to look picture perfect always. I guess I am tired of those influencer moms that “look” perfect and really aren’t, you know? I am not that person for sure! Life’s not perfect, life is messy! This blog will not be perfect and I encourage you to think if you are living your life authentically or if you striving for “perfection”.

The moral of this story is this: no matter how many times you sit in front of the computer and try to write something down, it won’t stick if you’re not writing it for yourself. I had so much time to get this done and ended up voice to texting this to myself while I cooked dinner! So inspiration can hit you at any time and it will be the most inconvienent time! I want to thank the lady on Instagram for posting when she did because it was exactly what I needed!

I hope if you have any topic suggestions go ahead and comment here or tell me on my social media! I appreciate you for reading this far and thank you for supporting me in my little adventure!

-Valerie

Published by Empowered Mama Coach

Hi, I'm Valerie! I am a Postpartum Empowerment Coach here to help guide you through the new journey of motherhood! Here I will share what I have learned, give tips on how to be more present in life and show you that you can stop sleepwalking through your life and start living it!

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