Yesterday I started week two of Beachbody’s Let’s Get Up 30 day dance program and this was the best money I have spent all year! I am so happy to finally be taking care of myself again. If you know me personally, you know I really don’t enjoy working out in the traditional sense and have always turned to yoga or ballet for my exercise. So me getting super sweaty and moving around for 30-35 minutes a day is out of the ordinary for me.
I started getting very interested in yoga in 2015 I began a practice and kept it up for most of the year. What usually happens is I’ll get going with something for a long time then just stop for basically no reason. So I kept that up until I didn’t. And I kept trying to get back into it, then last year I started in March and also began taking more ballet classes but then I injured my Achilles in June so I had to stop unfortunately.
When my friend unfriended me and I was having those obsessive thoughts where I would think about the situation and try to figure it out. I do that a lot and it makes me feel even more depressed and then I don’t feel like moving, which aids in my weight gain and that, in turn makes me feel even more depressed. So it’s a really vicious circle in my mind.
A friend from my baby group on Facebook suggested I join a gym to work out that it helped her when she was having those obsessive thoughts like I was. It stuck with me. I have another friend from the Facebook group and she is a Beachbody coach and she invited me to a meeting discussing the program. She has been so supportive and helpful in this new beginning for me and I am so thankful to that Facebook group for bringing these and many more wonderful women into my life.
Getting injured and not being able to even walk did not help my depression last year. I basically did nothing from June last year until May this year so pretty much a year. I never had a support system to keep me going with my home yoga practice. Dance was better but it was also only one day a week. It is so hard for me to keep going by myself and that is why I went ahead and joined Beachbody.
Now I am dancing everyday and have a protein shake to look forward to afterwards. It is getting harder for me because I am pushing myself. But I also have to be mindful that I did have an injury last year and I fell the day before we left Ohio. So my feet and ankles are very sensitive and are sore when I am done working out. If I feel pain, I know I’ve pushed it too far and I need to rest, take an anti-inflammatory and do the modified workout the next day.
My problem is I don’t do anything, then jump into something with full force. Then I injure myself. Then I stop. And it’s a whole circle. I have decided this year the circle will break and I will keep going. I want to be stronger for myself and my family. I want to lose the extra weight I have so I can be a healthier me. I want to be a positive roll model for my son and even those around me.
I can do this and I will do this. If you are like me and don’t like the workout in the traditional sense, find someone who will workout with you. Find your own community and do it for yourself. Make yourself a priority. Make your health a priority. Make your mental health a priority. YOU ARE WORTH IT!